So stressing...

Here we are on another update with Lil Miss. Her behavior hasn't gotten better. Although, it's been months I'm sad to say she has yet to go to therapy. Life happened and I feel so bad. I know my daughter's needs are very important. Like right now, I know she needs to go but I have no way of getting her there. My car has been broke down for weeks.

We try to get her to eat more of a variety of foods. But she refuses. I'm not sure if this is linked to the Pica or not. I know Pica will have her crave non food items but no place I have found on the internet says anything about it messing with eating the healthy stuff. At this point, I can make a list of the things she will eat. Which is very upsetting. Every day at dinner time is a hassle. She screams and cries because we give her something new. I've tried everything I could think of. I'm beginning to feel like a failure. I know the Lord blessed me with my wonderful daughter for a reason. I just feel that sometimes it's a bit much.

Her behavior is over-whelming at times. This I think is a mixture of things. It seems that the only way I can keep her from throwing fits (screaming, crying, hitting) is to allow her to watch Netflix when she's home. But I really don't want her on the computer all the time. I want her up moving around and playing. I tried to limit how long she was/is on the computer but she has a huge melt down when it's time for change. Like sudden things happening seem to stress her out so much. She cries that we hate her and that we don't like her. (No idea why this just started)

I think it's a mixture of her getting her way so much over the past five years with others and no limits being put into place. I'm going through a lot myself right now so I'm overly stressed. I just don't think I have the fight in me to enforce a time limit on the computer or TV. I don't think I can deal with the screaming and crying without it blowing up into a fight between myself and her.

I so badly want to find out what's going on and where to even begin fixing this situation. So, I'm writing this today... to ask... for suggestions. How can I get her to eat without it being a fight? How can I get her to actually want to get up and play with the room full of toys? Everything with her is a fight. I don't want anymore fighting. I want to say something and her listen. But how do I get her to listen?